I am so proud of Tim and how great he did at the program. The last few weeks he has been terrified of nursery because they've been taking the kids into the primary room to practice for the program. For whatever reason, Tim FREAKS when we try to take him into the primary room, so he's been hanging out with me in Young Women's or Brock in Elder's Quorum.
When it came time in the program for the nursery kids to go up to the pulpit and sing "The Wise Man and the Foolish Man" as well as say their individual parts, Tim did awesome! He went right up to the side of the pulpit, promptly put his hands on the ledge, and pulled himself up so he could see the congregation. I can just see his little eyes poking over the ledge. It's such a right of passage for little Mormon kids! I loved it! I helped him do the hand signs to the song (which is now his favorite to sing around the house! - he goes around doing the "rock" sign all the time). He had an absolute blast with that and just smiled the whole time. His line was "I can pray." I worked really hard the last couple of weeks to try and get him to say it, but he just couldn't get it out. But it was so cute because he walked up to the microphone, "talked" into it very gently, and then I said his line for him. We could tell he was so proud of himself and he was all smiles.
Since we are going through fertility treatments again, I am often thinking of newborns and babies. I long to be a mom to another sweet child, but that hurt and ache isn't there this time through all the treatments like it was last time. We have Tim. When I think about having a baby and how it just hasn't happened again for us yet, I almost immediately stop before sadness takes over and look at MY Tim. I am comforted immensely by him. He makes me so happy, but more than that, he brings more JOY to my life than ANYONE else EVER has. My heart hurts (in great way!) with the love I have for my little boy. Lately, I've been brought to tears in the most random moments when I look at him. I'm overwhelmed with love. I was doing the dishes the other day and he came in and was playing with a toy on the floor. I looked at him and literally had to stop doing dishes while I composed myself. Motherhood is the greatest blessing my Heavenly Father has given me. I'm so grateful that I have Tim. And if he is all I'm given, he is ENOUGH to bring me a lifetime of happiness and joy. Do I want more children. Yes. Do I feel like I will have more - definitely. But the peace it brings me knowing that I have Tim is so great while I go through all these treatments is such a blessing. I love my little boy!